"Behind These Hazel Eyes"

Kelly Clarkson

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

사랑안해 백지영

그럴려고 그랬어 돌아가려고~ 너의 차가움엔 그래 다 이유 있었던거야 나를 만지는 너의 손길 없어진 이제야 깨닫게 되었어 네맘 떠나간것을~ 설마~하는 그런 미련때문에~ 그래도 나는 나를 위로해~ 이제 이러는 내가 더 가~여워~ 이제라도 널 지울꺼야 기억에 모두를~ 이제다시 사랑안해~말하는나 너와같은 사랑 다신 만날수가 없어서 사랑할수 없어서~~ 바보처럼 사랑안해~ 말하는널 사랑한다~ 나를 잊길바래 나를 지워줘~ 바보처럼 몰랐어 너희 두사람 아직 기억하려던 그건 그래 다 욕심이야 다짐했던 말 매일 아침 눈을떠 지나간 너에게 기도해 나를 잊지 말라고~ 제발 지금 내가 바라는 하나 내얘길 너무 쉽게 하지마~차라리 나를 모른다고 말해줘 시간 지나 알게 될꺼야 내 사랑의 가치를~ 이제다시 사랑안해~말하는나 너와같은 사랑 다신 만날수가 없어서 사랑할수 없어서~~ 바보처럼 사랑안해~ 말하는널 사랑한다~ 나를 잊길바래 나를 지워줘~ 내가없는 내가아닌 그자리에 사랑 채우지마 다시만날수가 있다면 사랑할 수 있다면~아프자나~ 사랑한다~ 지켜보며~ 사랑한다~ 그 말 한마디를 하지 못해서

이 노래들이 좋아졌어...

아까 커피 마시면 안됬었는데...
밤 11시에 뭐슨 커피?
근데 벌서 마신걸 이제 어떻게하라고.. ㅡㅡ;
새벽 2:34분 인데.. 잠도 아예 안오고...
내일 아침 6:30에 일어나고 동생 학교 보내야되는데...
근데 잠도 못 자는데 alarm 시계 들을수 있을까?

아... 나 몰라 몰라 ><;
또 잘여고 노력 해야됌...
잠이 언제 올까?
빨리 왔으면 좋겠당... ㅠ.ㅠ

그래도 내일 엄마 가게 안가도 되서 다행이다~
잠도 못잔 애가 어떻게 10시간을 일해!?!?
그래도 엄마 도와주고 싶었는데...
그냥 나갈까?
뭐... 잠은 차에서 자면 되니까...

ish... 나 몰라~~~~
그냥 잠만 잘수 있으면 좋겠다...

I remember when xanga used to be the craze... and everyone had one...
especially the Asian community...
and then all of a sudden it's WOW MYSPACE!
and then a year later it's bye bye myspace and helloooooooo facebook...

I looked through my xanga.. and I realized.. I don't miss blogging at all...
It's not like I ever really shared anything personal on here for the most part...
and it's not like I like people reading what I do or think...

so why am I writing in my xanga now?
I really don't know.. maybe I just feel like writing something at the moment...
I really don't care... it's 2 in the morning and I'm half out of my mind with sleep...
and yet... the need to stay awake plagues at me...
I really need to cure my semi insomnia... -_-;

xanga 다시 쓸까 말까?
몰르겠다~
지금... 난 그냥 잤으면 좋겠어...
꿈 없이 그냥 푹 잤으면...

since I have this thing... I'm going to write in it...

at least then I'll have it for a reason, right?

sooo.. JHU apps are sent in and done... I'm jumpy nervous right now... I almost crashed hte car earlier cause I couldn't keep still... it was bad.. haha.. xD

why am I writing in this?  It's 2:10.. and I should be sleeping... ><;;  especially because I have work tomorrow...

meh.. freaking insomnia.. T.T 

ㅎㅎㅎ... 죽었다.. xD